is the focus of death, to put it more simply, certainty lies at the very heart of death
in other words, certainty is the essence of death, and esse est perciipi
without urgency, the focus remains unsteady,
pace yourself because change is inevitable
10/9/20
In like a lion, out like a lamb https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ia6IVZlwcxs
twice as unreal what appears to others is twice as unreal as what appears to you
→ 11/09/20
youtube instead of locating meaning in real time, find it in history
“what was the artist/creator thinking when he made this”
rather than
“what are they trying to tell me”
not everything that looks like a transgression is a transgression, some are mere explorations
GREGOR SAMSA COULDN’T ACCESS CERTAIN PARTS OF THE INTERNET?
decision time
uprooting the stump
report cards
me: still at 80% and hopefully alright with the world, definitely self-satisfied and not wanting any problems, nor success at this point, or in this manner. unclear about what has happened, confused about what I want. extremely clear on what i don’t want. brave enough to stay away from any situation i don’t fully understand.
intelligent enough to realize things are not quite as they are presented, though what is revealed may not be far off from the actuality.
integrated enough to hold myself in check, no matter the cost
decisive about my opinion on parts of the story i know to be true beyond a reasonable doubt
indifferent enough to let it all go as a good idea for a sci-fiction novella
writing is the ultimate affliction mental health vs spirituality mental health is proving your sanity to others
spirituality is proving your sanity to yourself
religion “is” a vector that points inward
there is a gradient and then shūnya
this is the first level
cheers / toasts to messy beginnings
to abrupt endings
to open secrets
to new cults
restraint:release sparse/rhythms
ambidexterity
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neuroplasticity
Activity-dependent plasticity can have significant implications for healthy development, learning, memory, and recovery from brain damage. [12] [13] [14]
sensory extension
“like a kite jerking tight at its tether” your happiness is paramount why get involved with people who have already demonstrated themselves to be deceitful, arrogant, stupid, incompetent, lusty, uncaring and selfish?
your own happiness is paramount, success and riches are worthless and indeed dangerous if they come at the cost of peace.
The essence of greatness is the perception that virtue is enough. Poverty is its ornament. It does not need plenty, and can very well abide its loss - Emerson
How to discover America in 4 easy steps find erica commit “crime” make erica “partner” in “crime” jump off a cliff BOOM gun the real problem of keeping a weapon is the temptation of using it on yourself red pill masculinity is taboo
don’t be a man, don’t even try
be happy in a cucked-out, pussy-whipped situationship cuz thats as real as its gonna get
why would you want to live otherwise? love is not a choice watch out for anyone making you choose, choice is illusion
it is never x or love, always x and love 1 is a crowd enough 2 is an orgy
3 is chaos
ideology = doubt
fuck descartes
let the record state that my discontent was limited to the lying and manipulating bit, not the invasion of thoughts/privacy bit
and i could pay a heavy price for my entertainment because i could afford to enjoy it
the thing about ego it never tells the same story twice
for your entertainment, you pay a heavy price
a benevolent enemy who doesn’t know any better and merely wishes to offset
what it perceives as hostile, namely time
so in rising above entertainment/narrative, you get the see time
in all its infinite and infinitesimal glory
you see there are worst cases, where sufferings are not merely psychological,
there, you should help what strategy? trying to teach strategy to man moving in love should be a fowl
how big of a deal is this thing, jeez
two women one a communist who could not handle communism
the other well on her way
my silence is YOUR odyssey deep politics when i say huxley, you say orwell EMH is a myth falsifiably untrue
conventions, mores, common blind spots bounded rationality → unknown unknowns pulling numbers out of asses / market making situations and valuation challenges limits of collective and individual reason / black swan events markets may decidedly benefit (factors) from induced inefficiencies (aka corruption aka govt intrusion)
has anyone already done this? the reason the reason it must be my own, albeit nudged from online feedback decision to change and welcome this
is that tomorrow if things fuck up, or i fuck up, the blame falls entirely on me - no one held a gun to my head, not literally anyway,
and as much certainty as i may bring to this, the fog of war sticks around
so i move, but move slowly, and indeed under better supervision, perhaps even slower
because i move based solely on long term vision, short term visibility is -1 trillion % of course i’m exaggerating
half-truths and whole lies
we could all become jewish, but the jew would still be extra disease is a trope for an older kind of narrative,
keep your mind still and breathe with each cell
this is called letting go
we could all become jewish, but the jew would still be extra
death is preparation locus of certainty
https://timroughgarden.org/f13/f13.html
The point is that, in systems with strategic participants,the rules matter.Poorly designed systems suffer from unexpected and undesirable results. The burden lies on the system designer to anticipate strategic behavior, not on the participants to behave against their own interests. Can we blame the badminton players for acting to maximize their medal placement? To quote Hartline and Kleinberg [5]:
”The next time we bemoan people exploiting loopholes to subvert the intent of the rule makers, instead of asking ’What’s wrong with these people?” let’s instead ask,’What’s wrong with the rules?’ and then adopt a scientifically principled approach to fixing them.”
There is a well-developed science of rule-making, the field of mechanism design.The goal in this field is to design rules so that strategic behavior by participants leads to a desirable outcome. Killer applications of mechanism design, which we will discuss in detail later,include Internet search auctions, wireless spectrum auctions, matching medical residents to hospitals, matching children to schools, and kidney exchange markets.
any new consciousness can only have a single point of origin, what if earth is that point for humanity?
aliens* do not exist
*self consciousness and/or language with self-ref
REALISING THIS IS SINGULARITY!
what if i am the harbinger of singularity?
the singularity signifier, one individual - me
Ď€ was not proven transcendental until 1882
“soul” kahin nahin hai /
aur kahin bhi, nahin hi hai
peace is a muscle
oh how it disgusts them, very interesting
long after humanity, there shall be a screen
I don’t like the way CS is taught and practiced, it should be totally different
Thank you for the feather, I do intend to tickle him with it.
rationalizing stupidity is not the only seductive trap, one can rationalize even irrationality if one were so inclined, but it would become a pointless language game
everyone goes back home to their parents,
except me, who chooses to lead a solitary life in the effort of simply stating the facts of life
established to genius may be a big step,
but genius to enlightenment is a very small one, it is so small that you can reach there only through a shortcut in time
like a wormhole.
established to enlightenment is satori
because nobody knows how to talk to him one on one,
communal prayers and gatherings have their value
but prayer is ultimately as personal as it gets
and should someone overhear a prayer, even if by “unlawful” means
how can it be a bad thing?
they know how to to talk to every other god and deity
but nobody knows how to tackle Jesus
i don’t claim to know what to say
but i’m sure as shit gonna tickle him silly if
i ever saw him, now that i have a feather and all :P
novelty fades
imposter is as imposter does
no fear
to abuse yourself to disabuse yourself of the wrong notions
if you didn’t have the wrong notions, abusing yourself would lose charm
its like blackjack
sorry i am so different than anything you’ve known, being a baby mama isn’t an expression of love at all
but i understand why that’s a ceiling for some women.
i’m not heartless, just traumatised, and frankly the constant barrage of absentee communication is
washing my brain in quite the opposite direction, you can’t say i didn’t warn y’all
so idk where it might lead us, please accept my deepest sympathies for the situation you have managed to
put yourself in for my sake, there can be no end to my sorrow it seems.
habit change is = habit observation, small fry
your narrative your rules
as long as your narrative does not come in the way of my life and how i want to live
you keep the narrative, shape it how you want
i interact with it based on what i feel is best for me
i’ll have nothing left to say
my mind is a canvas or a theater or war